I'm so Lonely
While it was great to see Chris, Katie, Erica, and to finally meet Fuzzy. It has force me to realize ,or admit, how truely lonely I am here. I know I have only really been living here a few weeks, and I have not gotten out much, thanks to my job, but those only feel like excuses. For the first time in a long time, I really don't know anybody around.
Most of the people I do know in Jackson are married and have kids. Or they knew me when I last lived here. But I am not the person I was a decade ago(Really! who is?). I don't want to be that person and I probably couldn't be if I tried.
I miss my friends in H'burg! I have never been mister popular, but I had a good circle of friends who would call and go out with me. Hell! I am on My Space mainly to stay in touch with them. That and to hunt down the AmeriFolks.
I guess, I just got to get out and make new friends here. But How? Where? These are the problems as I see it. I doubt I will make many friends at work. Its just not that type of place. While I do know alot of people at church, most of them fall into the married with children catagory mentioned above. Other than the occasional rock show, I don't really go anywhere else. Hell I don't really have time to go anywhere else.
So do I accept my solitude? Do I go out night after night till I burn out? Do I find a new interest to try and make new friends? Do I just hope and pray new friends fall into my lap?
These are the thought that ramble threw my brain. Sorry to anyone who reads these, I know it sounds like self pity, but I am just using these as a sounding board for my thought process. I swear!
Most of the people I do know in Jackson are married and have kids. Or they knew me when I last lived here. But I am not the person I was a decade ago(Really! who is?). I don't want to be that person and I probably couldn't be if I tried.
I miss my friends in H'burg! I have never been mister popular, but I had a good circle of friends who would call and go out with me. Hell! I am on My Space mainly to stay in touch with them. That and to hunt down the AmeriFolks.
I guess, I just got to get out and make new friends here. But How? Where? These are the problems as I see it. I doubt I will make many friends at work. Its just not that type of place. While I do know alot of people at church, most of them fall into the married with children catagory mentioned above. Other than the occasional rock show, I don't really go anywhere else. Hell I don't really have time to go anywhere else.
So do I accept my solitude? Do I go out night after night till I burn out? Do I find a new interest to try and make new friends? Do I just hope and pray new friends fall into my lap?
These are the thought that ramble threw my brain. Sorry to anyone who reads these, I know it sounds like self pity, but I am just using these as a sounding board for my thought process. I swear!
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